all my friends are dead

all my friends actually aren't dead but some of them sort of seem like it.

i didn't really mean touch and i don't really know how it happened. it may be because they are all friends with my ex, and we were all good friends, but i broke up with them (can't use specific pronouns sorry) and they probably took their side.

but it sort of makes me feel weird. i still want to be friends with them but i don't. and they probably don't want to be friends with me.

but i guess it's still partially my fault? i basically disappeared off the face off the earth for all they know. i deleted all my social media accounts that they're associated with or i just stopped using them. (except for one of them. i still use one of them and my ex still follows me on that one. i guess i just didn't want to delete it.)

i just wish i hadn't lost touch with them (being the friends)